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| College is overwhelming - and to be perfectly honest, in the last
couple of weeks, I'd become pretty well convinced that God just didn't
want me to go away to college this fall, and especially not to PHC.
They'd offered my wonderfully brilliant debate partner a significant
debate scholarship, but I heard nothing about scholarships.
nothing.
nothing.
And then, I got the ominous letter - which said my parents would pay
all of my tuition because they are super rich, and the only scholarship
I got was a $1,300/yr HSLDA grant. (which is nice, but ... not exactly
workable or realistic).
But then, my wonderful daddy (who often doubles as my knight in shining
armor) called the financial aid office and was like "Uh..what's up?".
And the financial aid office was like, "Um, wow, we totally forgot to
send Mackenzi's application through the debate department. Sorry, we'll
review."
And I guess they did, because today, I had a new financial aid letter
in the mail. This one said, "Your parents are rich and can pay for your
college education, but, we're also offering you $10,000 a year on a
debate scholarship."
So, God is good, and really, being still and waiting on Him is always
the best thing. He is faithful, and trusting Him is so rewarding. {even
if it's difficult and the last thing in the world I want to do}.
So, August 19, 2008 - Lord willing, I'll be in Virginia, as a Freshman. Patrick Henry College class of 2012.
"Bless the Lord, oh my soul, and all that is within me praise His holy name!"
Addendum: Mackenzi speaks tongue in cheek about a lot of things on Xanga posts. That is all.
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| In my perfect little world, I like to pretend that emotion doesn't exist. Everything is happy and good all the time, and there is nothing that is annoying, or stressful, or frustrating.
I'm relatively good at it. I can be happy Mackenzi almost whenever I want to be.
But sometimes, there are chinks in my armor. and then, life isn't all full of sunshine and rainbows. and I worry. and I fret. and I freak out. and i'm doing it. right now. PHC is soooo expensive. and I don't know how I will be able to make it work. at this particular moment in time, I'm sitting here, thinking that maybe it's just not what God has planned for my life. (wow, that would break my heart). and then I wonder what I would do after this summer if I don't move away to Virginia. Talk about a total refocus of everything. once upon a time, mackenzi loved debate with a passion. and wanted so much. and so little of what she wanted come to pass. and then, God did amazing things in her life. and debate has been wonderful. ever since. and mackenzi forgot how to trust. she should know. but, she is lost. george mueller is my hero today. "when it comes to the deepest things,
i have a hard time relinquishing control.
letting go.
God it hurts to give you what i must lay down
but when i let go
F R E E D O M is found.
God it hurts to give you
what i've held so dear
but
because of Your love, it's clear
i can trust you with this.
i can trust you with this
i can trust you with me."
i. can. trust. you.
{and once a choice to trust is made, there can be no turning back}
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| Life is much too crazy for me to keep up. :-p
Salt Lake City was not the most amazing tournament ever. Joanna and I learned that debating sick is not a good idea -- we went 2-4. IEs were better, but I was so sick I could hardly talk. It's amazing I got through any speeches at all that tournament. Fun stuff.
The rest of January was classes and trying to get ready for February, which was insanely crazy.
February was the CO Open, which was good. Joanna and I went 4-2, placed like, 21st -- hit an amazing team in double octos. The best part was that Joanna won Extemp, Apologetics, TP Speaks, and IE Sweeps.
My debate partner is inherently awesome. ;)
The next week Daddy and I went to Virginia to visit PHC (I LOVED it). We were going to go visit King's in NYC, but a nice ice storm in the Northeast meant we spent the day walking around in the airport and finally came home early. I've still never been to NYC.  I'm thinking it was a sign from God though, and a very timely one at that.
The next week was Centennial. Joanna was gone at another speech competition thing-y, winning money. Susanna and I debated together instead. We went 4-2 and placed 6th. That was fun. IEs were good. It felt like a long round robin.
The very next week, Joanna and I were back together and went to the Houston Open. Definitely the highlight of my tournament career. We went 5-1 in prelims, hit some completely awesome teams -- won in double octos, octos, quarters, lost in semis to the 1st place team -- and QUALIFIED TO NATIONALS!!!!!!
My last goal for NCFCA competition was to Q to Nats from an Open, and it happened! w00t!
School was interesting -- it was soooooo hard to get it done in February. But it's all coming together, except for Geometry, which is evil. :-p
March was somewhat quieter.. History tests, a D on a Geometry test (that made for a miserable week) and just normal stuff.
RMC was UNBELIEVABLE! We went 5-1 in prelims again, hit Brian and Jon in octos, Marla and Nathan in quarters, Josh and Jennie in semis and Kenny and Caroline in Finals. (w00t! RESOLVE rocked the tournament). We won the round on a 7-2 split. 'Twas one of the highlights of my NCFCA career - excepting 5th at Nats, and Q'ing to Nats in TP. :) I also placed 1st in extemp and 2nd in TP Speaks (whoa, I actually beat Joanna in speaks?!?!?!) ;-p
And with that, my Colorado competition days are over. Regionals are two weeks from now -- but in Seattle. It's kind of weird to think that I have just two high school tournaments left in my life. In some ways, it'll be nice to move on to college, and leave the NCFCA behind. But at the same time, it's been almost my whole life for the last four years. I'm sure going to miss high school debate .... how lame is that?
So, that's Mackenzi's life. I'm going to get back to my 500+ pages of reading.... (yikes)
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| Hmmm, yeah, so a tournament is supposed to start tomorrow morning, and surprise of all surprises, Mackenzi is wide awake and not at all inclined to sleep at all tonight. blaaaaaah.
1. Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
I have feelings for a lot of people.
2. What are you doing Friday night?
Um, either being meepy because I didn't break to quarters, or being nervous about how the quarters round went.
3. Name what you did yesterday:
Drove through Wyoming... it was exciting.
4. Last person you text messaged?
Um, either Marla or Susanna -- I think it was Marla
5. Who was the last person to call you?
Cosette
6. What are you doing right now?
Waiting for Michaela to get out of the shower so that I can (maybe) get some sleep
7. What color are your eyes?
Green
8. Do you like anyone?
Yeah -- didn't I already answer this question?
9. Are you dating the last person you kissed?
Uh, I'm homeschooled.
10. Who was the last person to message you?
Jennifer
11. What color is your hair?
Auburn
12. Do you remember singing any songs as a kid?
Yes.
13. How many siblings do you have?
4
14. Who knows a secret or two about you?
Probably more people than I care to admit..
15. When was the last time you lied?
This quiz. ;-p jk... I can't remember
16. Do you like fire?
Fire make heat to keep Mackenzi warm.
17. Did you have a nap today?
Nope. Went and saw the Mormon Temple in SLC during nap time. ;)
18. What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
Jeans.
19. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
haha -- from my neighbor... who got it from VS
20. Have you ever wanted to be a teacher?
Not especially -- but I sure teach a lot.
21. What is your dad's middle name?
Alan
22. Have any regrets?
Yes. Very much so.
23. Where were you 1 hour ago?
Walgreens
24. Where were you 8 hours ago?
Mormon Temple
25. Where were you 18 hours ago?
Good grief... I feel stalked! um... eating breakfast with Joanna.
26. Is cheating ever okay?
I can always find the exception to the rule... but as a general principle, no.
27. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
Mom, Michaela, Madison, Joanna, Moriah
28. What are you looking forward to?
The SLC Tournament
29. What kind of pants are you wearing?
paint splattered pj's
30. What radio station do you listen to?
Eh, depends my mood... usually Q102
31. Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?
Ex what?
32. What are you listening to?
The annoying heater in the hotel room.
33. What do most people call you?
Mackenzi.
34. If you could pick one person to disappear from the planet, who would it be?
Hillary Clinton?
35. What is your favorite name?
Klohe Kathleen (yes, both should start with K) and Rhett Alexander.
36. Largest age difference between yourself and someone you've dated?
Uh....
37. What time did you wake up today?
early.
38. How do you want to die?
I hate these questions
39. Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?
Of course.
40. What was the last movie you watched?
Pride and Prejudice
41. What is your favorite fairy tale?
Beauty and the Beast
42. How often do you go to church?
Twice a week -- although one speech club also meets at our church... so three times a week?
43. What's a favorite quote of yours?
"To die is nothing; but it is terrible not to live." ~Victor Hugo
44. Do you have a secret right now?
Hrmmm, not that I can really think of.
45. If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to vent to?
Susanna, Joanna, or Michaela
46. Do you like to hug?
:smile:
47. What is your biggest fear?
Failure
48. Are you confident?
Sometimes I manage to pull off that perception...
49. Are you a good driver?
well, I've never been pulled over or gotten any other sort of ticket... so I'm gonna' say yes.
50. What are you doing tomorrow?
DEBATING!!! w00t! | | |
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